hi im back :) yes im having 3 test tmr n i didnt bring home my lit storybook. i have lit test tmr!! i m so blur! lol time pass really fast today. n i have been smiling the whole day. so tired. having to pretend to be happy. but i have to be strong rite, anot ill make myself sad. today morning went sch n found out that i have history test! than quickly started studying . lucky is sbq :) n ya, my history test i have read the wrong Q again. always like that one. lol after sch wanted to go home straight to study. hahah good girl! actually im arent a good girl. is just that no one have time for me :) hahaha! sounds pathetic rite. oh, ytd's blog post i said until half way only, ya i was struck under the building for like 20 min, n no one is there to save me! im waiting for superman :) hahaha! end up decided to just walk home like that cos its late alrdy. no one will bother abt me, so i decide to just walk home despite the rain. it was so nice walking under the rain like that, it makes me think of how pathetic im now. lol . i rmbed the last time i have done that is like sec 2, i rmb i was so happy last time walking under the rain, despite getting u scolding. at least i noe that someone actually cares. but now, everything is different, u have moved on, so easily. n me, struck in the past.
i rmb ytd telling shihui how much i hate wen someone say just move on, wat so difficult, there is alot of guys better out there. yes, there is alot of guys out there. but none of them can replace all those memories. all the places u use to bring me to, all the msgs we had making fun of each other, all the presents u give to me to make me happy. who actually noes abt them. except me .
actually arent i silly, i use to telling my friends wat to do wen they r facing relationship problems. i told them , "
yes i noe every of u friends will be there for u, but that's only in the day. at nite, its all really abt urself. " all day long, u might be busy n forget abt all those unhappy stuff, but at nite, that's wen memories start hunting u back. that's y people often cry themselves to sleep.
today at class, chao dong told me, its really going to be a long time to recover from it. but i didnt reply him. cos me myself noes abt it. n there's nth i can do abt it.
hahaha, go back to after sch today. after sch, i walk home with haikal. i could feel that he is also sad cos of relationship. but i better not say anything to make him sad. so i just kept silent. along the way, i was talking to him abt relationship things. he told me u crazy, y sad so long. i nvr reply cos i noe no one will understand. :)
up till today, next week will maybe be the day i will cry the hardest cos of the 1 yr thing. n yes, im so afraid of it, cos i noe i cannot face it. but i cant stop time rite. hahaha! sorry for all the sad things. bye :)
i don noe y u can let go so easily, n pls let me read the words u wrote. maybe to u , my words is nth. but to me, u words still matters
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